As you all know, I wasn’t exactly in love with my job. In fact I loathed it. I worked for Satan herself. I was selling my pride and dignity for a paycheck every week. My aunt is the one who said that a whore is not just the person who sells her body for money, and she was right. I felt spent, and stressed every day, only to go back for more abuse the next day. I’ve finally had enough and quit. I know that it wasn’t the smartest decision, especially in this economy, but I would rather flip burgers than work there for another day.
So now, I’m unemployed, sitting at home, sleeping passed noon everyday, just wasting away. I feel like I’m at the lowest point I’ve ever been at. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore. I feel like I’ve let those manipulative bitches at my old job win. They got what they wanted. They squeezed me out.
I have all this time on my hands now. I could be working on my fashion line, but I have no money to pay for fabrics. But that really isn’t it. I’m pretty resourceful. I just don’t have the drive or the inspiration to design anything. I’ll start a project, then get frustrated with it a quarter of the way through.
But I have to get off my ass and start doing something constructive with my time. Like say, finding a new job. That’s why I’ve started a vision board dedicated entirely to finding a new job and living the life I want to start living now. I put the type of job I want, the kind of apartment I’d like to live in, the type of car I want to have, and the places I’d like to visit on my vision board.
I placed my vision board across from my bed so I could view it easily. It made me happy looking at this new life I could have. I was excited looking at my vision board. I would look at the portion of my vision board that contained my ideal job and salary, and something started happening. I started to feel something I haven’t felt in a while: Confidence. I felt confident that I would get this job. I knew without a doubt that I would land this job, and start on this new journey. Things in my life needed to turn around and change. Only a positive attitude can help me out of this rut. Whenever I talk to any of my family members, friends, I tell them ‘WHEN I get a job’ not ‘IF I get a job’.
I spent all of last week applying jobs, and I finally got called back for two jobs! I have interviews next week, and the salary is in the range that I put on my vision board! Really great stuff is starting to happen here, and it’s all thanks to my vision board. I’m really excited to see a turn around in my life. It’s time I started to take control of career, and stand up for myself in any workplace. I can’t let people walk all over me, no matter what salary they’re offering. If I’m not happy with what I’m doing, then it’s just not worth it.
I’m staying positive, and I can see positive things happening around me.
‘Til Next Time (maybe next time I write, I’ll be happily employed)XOXO Shoes Over Booze