I’ve been feeling very….blah lately. In fact, I haven’t been feeling anything at all. Nothing really excites me, surprises me, inspires me, or gets me going in any way. I have no idea why. I just woke up one day feeling absolutely nothing.
Don’t get me wrong, it sounds much worse than it really is. I don’t want for anything right now. I wanted a relationship, and now even the idea of having a man in my life doesn’t do it for me like it used to. I’m content with being single.
But the only driving force in my life right now is fashion. I want my business to succeed with a fierce passion. I want to be successful, driven, and accomplished. I want to live my truth every day of life. I want my work to consist of doing what I love.
Maybe love needs to take a back seat right now. Maybe the universe is telling me I’m not ready for it just yet. I think the way being single for 2 years sounded scared me more than anything. At this point, I truly don’t mind it. It is what it is.
How have I come to this conclusion you ask? I’ll tell you.
I’ve been reading yet another metaphysical, and inspiring book called The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Dr. Joseph Murphy. Wonderful book, jam packed with helpful insights and techniques to change your life…for real for real. It’s like The Secret on steroids.
At first, I used the techniques to try to attract the perfect relationship to me. I repeated the same affirmation everyday after I woke up, and before I went to sleep for three weeks now. At the end of the third week, I wasn’t feeling it anymore. I didn’t feel as passionate about it as I did in the first week.
I don’t know what this means, but I know deep down I really want a beautiful, functional, successful relationship. I don’t know if that’s what I want right now.
I think it’s high time I really sat down and evaluated what I wanted in life. What the hell do I want?!!!
Success? More Money? Love? Peace?
Can’t I have everything?